Should I ?

Of course it’s not easy to trust someone who doesn’t close with you.  

Actually, I trust what everybody said, but I can’t say all about me to the other easily.
There are a lot of reasons for it. 

Actually, I’m not as strong as you thought.  

I really want to tell what I fell to you but my mouth can’t speak any words.
Should I tell you the wrong fact if I don’t want tell to you? 

Of course I don’t! it’s a problem for me that I can’t say to you.
I always try to open up and share with you. but I can't.
can you help me? thx